Speech

Though sometimes I feel as though the days are never ending I still can't believe that our little man is 21 months old. Before we know it he will be turning 2 and then 18. But let's not get ahead of ourselves right?

With some very difficult things going on in our lives right now that seem to be constantly filling my brain I will try and keep my thoughts as organized as I can...

Before Josiah's 18 month check-up I was worrying a lot about his speech or lack-there-of but at his 18 month check up all was well. His speech had picked up a bit and he was saying the allotted amount of words that they wanted him to be saying. He was at the lower end of the spectrum but was still progressing so we felt comfortable and good with where he was at. Over the past few months it seemed that the words he was saying, he wasn't anymore. Brett and I talked and prayed a lot about what we should do and we had decided we would wait and give him a few more months to see what happens. That was our plan until about two weeks ago when his screaming skyrocketed. We went through about 3 days of it and decided that enough was enough. I called our Birth to 3 Area Connections and they came and did an evaluation. Of course just as we knew he was way behind in his speech. She then referred him to the county where they would do an evaluation on him as well. They came this last Thursday and will come again on Tuesday and then from there we will have a speech therapist come to our house.

Parenting has been THE hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life! It seems that one worry follows the next. Josiah's lack of speech has not only been frustrating for him but also really hard on Brett and I. I'm not sure that Brett has the exact same thoughts as I do but I really do struggle with feeling like I haven't been a good mom. That maybe his delay in speech is my fault. Not only are we feeling the strain of this speech issue but it seems to have made us short with each other and mostly a very short amount of patience for our son. This breaks my heart and I pray that the Lord can give me the patience I need each day to get through this.

We look forward to his speech therapy and are praying for quick results.

And just a quick look at what happens in our house if you don't hear any noise from your 21 month old...

I went into the living room to see what he was doing and I saw him playing and thought, "oh good, everything is fine". Then I looked at his face and thought, "what is all over his face?"

I took a few more steps into the kitchen to try and figure out what he had been into and sure enough he had taken the old coffee filter out of the garbage, apparently thought he would try it and I'm sure quickly realized that it doesn't taste good so why not just rip the bag apart and make a huge mess!